Yesterday was a big day for my hubby. He peaked a 14er with his brother and his dad (actually, his dad almost peaked - made it to just above 13,000' and then waited for the young 'ens to come back down w/the guide). Brent was so excited...being in the mountains is always such a spiritual time for both of us...closer to God and all of that. But being on TOP...well, stopping and looking and just BEING THERE can be a life-changer.
He knows how much I love "cairns" and took/sent me a few pix...it reminded me of this blog I wrote a year or so ago. Felt like re-reading it...you I felt like re-publishing. Hope you dig it...oh, and here is one of the pix:
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So recently I went to the cemetery for the first time in like 5 years...the one where my dad is buried. Funny thing, I drive past it almost daily, but I dont go there. No need. He's not there...I know that, but for some reason I was drawn there the other day.
As I stood there and thought, "I have no flowers...or anything to leave her to show someone's been here" I saw some rocks. And then, my first thought was - a cairn - I need to build a cairn. Do you know what a cairn is? I found a blog on hiking that said this...
I found some rocks and
built a lil Flower Mound cairn...I told my bro later and he loved the
idea. Our own lil cairn right there for Dad. As the day went on, I kept
thinking about my cairn...and then, today as I was reading/praying I was
struck by something (bear with me, life analogy coming) - my life is a
process of building cairns...guides, markers, signals for where I've
been. I thought of all the pains/sufferings - and the good stuff, too,
of course - in my life and visualized adding another rock to my pile.
Hmmm. How many piles do I have?
How do I let all those things - the things I should never forget that God has let occur in my life - guide my life? Guide my path...the direction I go?
Ya know, when I went to Colorado a few summers ago and my bro took us hiking, when I saw a cairn he told me, "don't touch it...leave it the way you found it or add to it, but dont take any of the rocks away...they need to be there". And so goes my life as well...each experience NEEDS to be there.
I've been doing lots of "personal digging" in my life lately - hoping to feel led to write about it soon - and God is showing me some amazing ways He wants to lead me in a new direction. He wants to take me on different paths that I've never thought I could manage. I've always decided, "this is just the way God made me...my destiny is to be HERE, just the way I am...".
He's been taking this opportunity to change that thinking. I have to trust that all things work together for His purpose - not just say it, but BELIEVE IT. Live it.
And so, the images of the cairns stays with me today...and I'll beg Him to continue to show me just how He wants me to stack my rocks. Being led is not easy...trusting the path is a struggle when you have NO idea where its going. But, I thank Him that He cares enough for each of us - regardless of how we regard Him - to provide a trail...whether we take it or not.
"But
small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life..."
Very cool cairn photo! I've been following them through the Colorado mountains all my life. Nice analogy to the walk of life.
Posted by: UltraRob | August 20, 2010 at 10:08 PM