Day 2 - trying to blog every day...
The other day - the ULTIMATE joiner, FACEBOOK - brought me back in touch with someone I knew in high school (shout out Leslie!). It got me thinkin'...who was I back then (I truly HATE thinkin' on that too long...if you've read this blog for long, you know that)? It got me wondering, for people who dont know me now - the NOW KRIS - what do they not know about me? I feel so comfy in who I am now...I look back then and see a struggling, pain-stricken, confused, dorky, rude, selfish kid searching.
And so, as I was wrapping bacon around some dates stuffed with almonds (dont ask) I decided I'd introduce the 16 year old Kris (and anyone else who might be paying attention out there) to me now...the real me.
1) He caught me. The Lord, that is. I accepted Christ as a freshman in high school but was floundering for so many years...searching for the path I needed to be on. Most of the time, I was WAY off in some field somewhere...nowhere close to where He wanted me. Well, He finally rescued me. I may have been a Young Life kid and 'knew' Christ as best I could, but living out my life and finally ASKING Him where He wanted me (not where I wanted me) was what changed the NOW KRIS. He caught me...I'm so glad He did.
2) I love this mommy gig. I was made for this. I never put much thought into it back then, truly. But after we had Braeden and decided I'd be tapering off work and staying home - it hit me, THIS is what I was MADE to do. I'm so thankful Brent agrees and that we can afford to make it work.
3) I'm an "over-yes-er" - and I'm trying to change that. I take on too much and regret it later. And, so does my sweet family. Argh...its a battle, but I'm getting better.
4) I love living in my home town...I love when my worlds collide - Maya's dance, kiddos' school, YL from '88, my mom's friends, bible studies, etc. I dont think I've ever stopped to appreciate how cool it is that I can go to the grocery store and in one trip see a friend I just met and a friend who has known me for 25 years. Hmmm, that's cool.
5) I love clothes and all that that implies. OK...so that might be the same as 16 year old Kris, I suppose.
6) I still love the coolest cat on this big bad earth...STILL...15 years married...20-something together. Huh...that's amazing. I dont stop often enough to appreciate that. Still love him so much it makes me grin.
7) I get a little sad when I think of a grocery store popping up on my mom's land.
8) I want to live every day with Brent's motto in mind (and I fail daily) - MTMOI. That is, "make the most of it". I try...because every day is a gift. Sound cliche, but so real and true.
9) Music makes me happy, sad, passionate, introspective, prayerful...all that. It is so soulful to me. I guess it was then, too, really. I love thinking of my life in terms of 'soundtracks'. Funny.
10) I still talk too much and need to listen more. Still.
Well...that's what was on my mind. I must go back to stuffing dates. I said "dont ask". Day 2...this feels good. I hope you can stop and introduce your old self to your new self. I love my new self - I wish I could go back and tell her so many things, but I guess she had to live it out and learn it her way, right?
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